Have you ever been in one? I'm not talking about the inconveniences on the road, I'm talking about those points in life where you get stuck. I mean REALLY stuck. No matter how hard you try to get out of it, no matter what angle you try, things still basically remain the same.
That's where I'm at right now. It seems no matter what way I try to approach life in general, something is always "off." Sometimes it's an unhealthy living situation, sometimes it's my job, sometimes it's relationships. It seems as soon as I try to fix one area of life, another is magnified 10 times over. And I don't know how to handle it.
Any advice?
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Random Ish I Learned This Week
Obviously, times of change are apt to bring about times of learning. Now that I am at pretty much settled in to this new chapter, I can share some of the things I've learned....in no particular order, here's some of the random stuff I've learned about the world and about myself just this week.
-Tupperware is a Multi-Level Marketing business. Why this was so odd to me was that Tupperware is a household name. Typically MLM businesses are not household names.
-There are dog breeds such as Porkies and Dorkies... it would be perfect if I owned a Dorkie :)
-In the state of Arkansas, it is illegal to pronounce it "our Kansas"...but only if you're in the state itself.
-I'm really good at describing and promoting stuff. I almost sold space on the website I work for a couple of times yesterday just by describing it. Maybe I should make a career change while I'm still young.
-Stress and exhaustion do not...I REPEAT...do NOT go well together. They produce a lot of tears and possible illness. I've learned this time and time again, this is just the first time I've learned it in this particular context.
-I think I might be in the process of developing a six pack and it's pretty cool.
K, off to start Saturday. Happy weekend!
-Tupperware is a Multi-Level Marketing business. Why this was so odd to me was that Tupperware is a household name. Typically MLM businesses are not household names.
-There are dog breeds such as Porkies and Dorkies... it would be perfect if I owned a Dorkie :)
-In the state of Arkansas, it is illegal to pronounce it "our Kansas"...but only if you're in the state itself.
-I'm really good at describing and promoting stuff. I almost sold space on the website I work for a couple of times yesterday just by describing it. Maybe I should make a career change while I'm still young.
-Stress and exhaustion do not...I REPEAT...do NOT go well together. They produce a lot of tears and possible illness. I've learned this time and time again, this is just the first time I've learned it in this particular context.
-I think I might be in the process of developing a six pack and it's pretty cool.
K, off to start Saturday. Happy weekend!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Roller Coaster
Life can be such a roller coaster sometimes. Full of ups and downs, twists and turns. I feel like I'm ready for a straightaway and there is none in sight. Just as I think life is getting ready to even out, a sudden drop or turn occurs out of seemingly nowhere. I guess I need to learn to take the ride as it comes....
Saturday, March 13, 2010
This is the Story of a Girl (Or, Holy Change Batman!)
The last year or so has changed the way I think, act, react...basically everything about me. This is not the first time this has happened and I'm sure it's not the last.
I guess it started in May when I graduated from college after a long and winding road (more on that later...it's a whole different blog in itself). From there, I entered the workforce when the economy was totally tanked. Fantastic. Thank goodness, I already had a part-time position somewhere near where I went to college. Still, there were talks of funding, cut-backs and the like. Then my immediate supervisor walked out one day never to return and I took her position. So I was now doing my job and her job. In August, I took on a third position with the same organization. This third position was really a full time job and here I was doing it in 2.5 days a week. I'm not complaining (hey! I had a job in a tanked economy!) I adored what I did but I still couldn't pay my bills.
The whole time I was waiting for these three jobs to transpire, I felt like I was a fish in an aquarium. Like I had no place to go and no direction in life. I was just existing to exist. So, there you have change one. Graduating from college and entering the workforce. And having no clue what to do from there.
July 4th weekend proved to be a pivotal point in the change I speak of. It's when I was reunited with an old friend through what I thought was fate. We knew each other when I lived in San Diego and started hanging out a lot. When I moved, we said good bye in a random sandwich shop fully never expecting to see each other again. Fast forward to July 4th 2009 and he goes to the same church I do and recognizes me. After 5 or so years. Absolutely crazy. We start talking, one thing leads to another and we start dating. People around us are taking bets as to when the ring is coming. Christmas comes and we have plans to go see his parents. And Christmas is where things go hairy. Long story short, he got cold feet and we never to see his parents. It came to a head that we were on different levels and he decided we needed to take a break. On Christmas Eve, mind you. I spent the week between Christmas and New Year's at my parents basically moping around. Then I woke up one day and I was over it. By the time he called again, about a week in to the new year, I was already prepared for the inevitable.
This whole relationship taught me so much. I am still trying to be able to articulate exactly what it taught me, but I know it prepared me for bigger and better things. There's change two. Love 'em and get left.
One thing you have to know is that I am incredibly close with my family. My theory is that I was raised Mormon and they are very focused on the family. One of the integral parts of our family is my grandmother. She was and continues to be the cornerstone of our family. She has been through so much. She is a piece of living, breathing history and if you get her to talk about it, it's pretty amazing. Plus, at 91, she has a personal trainer. Easily the coolest grandma I know. Sometime over the summer, it came to light that she had cancer. Being away, I would get updates via email and on the phone but of course my heart ached because I wanted to be with her every step of the way. Thanks to medical technology, she is now cancer free and doing great. Change three. Almost losing a love one. I don't know how I would have carried on if she had actually succumbed.
There were other events along the way, too. But not as monumental as those three. I finally got the concept that eating right and exercise makes for a skinnier, healthier person. It's been told to me a million times, but until it actually happened, I didn't get it. I also went on a service trip to Mexico for the first time in about 10 years. It was easily among the top five weekends of the year.
All of this change prompted me to make the biggest change to date and basically start over. One day, at the end of January (after much job searching, processing the break-up, missing my family, etc.), I decided to resign from my three jobs in one organization to focus on my job search...at home. This meant resigning, training three replacements and moving to a different area in a month. I'm no stranger to challenge so I did it. It wasn't easy, but I did what I had to do. I knew was done with this chapter in my life.
I couldn't be happier for having made that decision. That month was incredibly hecktic and scary, but, somewhere deep inside me, I was very aware of the fact that I was making the right decision.
So this is how it all panned out about two weeks ago now: my last day at the previous organization was Thursday, I had a second round interview on Friday (which ended in an offer! Woot!), moved that weekend (thanks again for the help...you know who you are!) and started my new life at 7 on Monday morning.
I guess it started in May when I graduated from college after a long and winding road (more on that later...it's a whole different blog in itself). From there, I entered the workforce when the economy was totally tanked. Fantastic. Thank goodness, I already had a part-time position somewhere near where I went to college. Still, there were talks of funding, cut-backs and the like. Then my immediate supervisor walked out one day never to return and I took her position. So I was now doing my job and her job. In August, I took on a third position with the same organization. This third position was really a full time job and here I was doing it in 2.5 days a week. I'm not complaining (hey! I had a job in a tanked economy!) I adored what I did but I still couldn't pay my bills.
The whole time I was waiting for these three jobs to transpire, I felt like I was a fish in an aquarium. Like I had no place to go and no direction in life. I was just existing to exist. So, there you have change one. Graduating from college and entering the workforce. And having no clue what to do from there.
July 4th weekend proved to be a pivotal point in the change I speak of. It's when I was reunited with an old friend through what I thought was fate. We knew each other when I lived in San Diego and started hanging out a lot. When I moved, we said good bye in a random sandwich shop fully never expecting to see each other again. Fast forward to July 4th 2009 and he goes to the same church I do and recognizes me. After 5 or so years. Absolutely crazy. We start talking, one thing leads to another and we start dating. People around us are taking bets as to when the ring is coming. Christmas comes and we have plans to go see his parents. And Christmas is where things go hairy. Long story short, he got cold feet and we never to see his parents. It came to a head that we were on different levels and he decided we needed to take a break. On Christmas Eve, mind you. I spent the week between Christmas and New Year's at my parents basically moping around. Then I woke up one day and I was over it. By the time he called again, about a week in to the new year, I was already prepared for the inevitable.
This whole relationship taught me so much. I am still trying to be able to articulate exactly what it taught me, but I know it prepared me for bigger and better things. There's change two. Love 'em and get left.
One thing you have to know is that I am incredibly close with my family. My theory is that I was raised Mormon and they are very focused on the family. One of the integral parts of our family is my grandmother. She was and continues to be the cornerstone of our family. She has been through so much. She is a piece of living, breathing history and if you get her to talk about it, it's pretty amazing. Plus, at 91, she has a personal trainer. Easily the coolest grandma I know. Sometime over the summer, it came to light that she had cancer. Being away, I would get updates via email and on the phone but of course my heart ached because I wanted to be with her every step of the way. Thanks to medical technology, she is now cancer free and doing great. Change three. Almost losing a love one. I don't know how I would have carried on if she had actually succumbed.
There were other events along the way, too. But not as monumental as those three. I finally got the concept that eating right and exercise makes for a skinnier, healthier person. It's been told to me a million times, but until it actually happened, I didn't get it. I also went on a service trip to Mexico for the first time in about 10 years. It was easily among the top five weekends of the year.
All of this change prompted me to make the biggest change to date and basically start over. One day, at the end of January (after much job searching, processing the break-up, missing my family, etc.), I decided to resign from my three jobs in one organization to focus on my job search...at home. This meant resigning, training three replacements and moving to a different area in a month. I'm no stranger to challenge so I did it. It wasn't easy, but I did what I had to do. I knew was done with this chapter in my life.
I couldn't be happier for having made that decision. That month was incredibly hecktic and scary, but, somewhere deep inside me, I was very aware of the fact that I was making the right decision.
So this is how it all panned out about two weeks ago now: my last day at the previous organization was Thursday, I had a second round interview on Friday (which ended in an offer! Woot!), moved that weekend (thanks again for the help...you know who you are!) and started my new life at 7 on Monday morning.
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